As I have said many times, I do not have all the answers; I am just no longer afraid to ask the questions. Following are some of the thoughts that I have had that provoke questions and very slowly begin to unfold answers.
One issue is the understanding of who God really is. I am sure that I do not have a Hebraic understanding of Him, as I am so steeped in the Greek mindset of Trinity. It has always bothered me that the idea of the Trinity was given in a dream to someone during the Nyacene council. So much other “bad” stuff came from that council, that I wonder if our concept of God has been marred somehow by that.
It also has been a question of mine if there is a way that someone can get to heaven without knowing who Jesus is. I mean, someone who never gets to hear His story explained, and does not know Him by name. Not that His sacrifice isn’t necessary; but for those who desire truth, and love the creator but never know about Jesus; I now think they do go to heaven. The Bible says that God makes himself known to every person by nature so that all are without excuse. Abraham didn’t know how it would happen but only that God would make a way, and it was counted to him as righteousness. I also cannot believe that the native American tribes who worshipped the Creator God would not have gone to heaven even though they would not have known to call the name Jesus or have full understanding of what he did for them. When Jesus died for the sins of the world, did He only die for those who would be told who he was and what he did, or for all those who would love God and seek truth? What about the Jewish people who love and serve God but do not understand who Jesus is yet? I am not talking about those who have heard and who refuse to believe, nor those who have had the experience and rejected Him or walked away. Let me make myself clear, I do believe that the sacrificial death of Jesus upon the cross is THE ONLY WAY that we have access to God. There is no other way of salvation. I guess what my pondering is, bottom line, is can you receive salvation without fulling understanding and can you believe in God making a way for you without knowing to call Him by the name Jesus?
Another thing that makes you go hhhhmmmmm……
I woke up one morning at 4am and the verse, “his blood be upon us and upon our children” was going through my mind. Is it possible that the prophetic words spoken by those who cried out for Jesus to be crucified was actually a declaration of salvation over the Jewish people. I realize that they were really answering Pilate when he said that he washed his hands of the responsibility of the death of this innocent man. What they were saying is that they would take responsibility for Jesus death and that responsibility would be upon them and their children after them, and I assume they meant for perpetual generations.
Doesn’t it make you wonder, if the death of Jesus was planned from the foundation, and was God’s express purpose; couldn’t their taking responsibility for it actually work for their good? Even in their ignorance they were speaking out that His Blood would be upon them and their children. Amazing that I have never seen that before. Having His blood on them is exactly what we would say that we want for the Jewish people.
I know that I do not have answers right now, just a lot of questions. But I feel that I see God in a more merciful, and loving light than I had in the past. And I hope to come to a more full understanding of the fact that we serve One God. Jesus who was on the earth and triumphed over death is now Triumphant God in heaven. There are not 3 beings; just one.
It is more than I can wrap my brain around and thus the drip, drip, drip, of my brain melting in my head.
